PS5 No My Question Have Not!.

I’ve been discussing all that I’m sharing with DTG Jan to which he’s say all this has been answered.

It hasn’t been answering just brushed off like it’s a layer issue now.
This has been going on for over 3 years with no answer, no explanation.
Both threads are locked so basically DTG Jan has consider this matter over.

As you can see from the quotes this is not as DTG is making out to be and again totally discarded the matter as over.

It’s not. I still want answers and some explanation after all this time.

 

Sorry,

What is this about?!

 

I dont mean to rude or disrespectful but I think its time you give up with this.DTG Are brushing you off i would forget it and get on with things. I wish you well in the future .

 

Seems to be connected to this

https://forums.dovetailgames.com/posts/1070960/

Or this…

https://forums.dovetailgames.com/threads/for-dtg-and-dtg-jan.95530/

Either way seems something that should be pursued via DM and certainly not in the bug reporting section of the forum. If the OP keeps it up, all that will happen is they will end up with a suspension or even IP ban.

 

No I’ve explained this is NOT a layer issue.
Nor does layering issues explain why what happened did. Replacement of a full class 43.
I have evidence that goes back 3 years and this is not a layer issue.
Those are set blanks over work.

I have opened a numbers of threads because you DTG Jan are ignoring what’s being explained and I will not allow you to treat this way.
I’ve also explained this is not good for my mental health nor full comfortable being on this forum now because again you are making me at to a pain. No it’s you DTG Jan making it hard even avoiding any future help or assistance.

You want it gone and that why for 3 years I’ve had no answer or explanation.
I have give you DTG and you DTG Jan a problem that caused massive damage to my mental state and your doing the same again.
Thus pushing me away from a game I love because you will not listen or take this seriously.

I have posted these publicly so again it’s not me looking like what you are trying to make me look like.
So if you stop closing or hiding me post then I will stop posting more.
Especially why I keep telling you this is NOT a current issue it’s one that’s been long standing and the same happened again.

All I want from you DTG is answers, not hiding my concerns or how I feel. STOP CLOSING MY THREADS WHEN AS YOUR CUSTOMER MY CONCERNS HAVE NOT BEEN TREATED SERIOUSLY, NOT RESOLVED TO A SATISFACTORY LEVEL.

Leave this thread open and deal with me not say your on holiday I reply back and you leave it.
You simply don’t care and I feel as CM this is absolutely disgusting you haven’t answered a single question.
Due to how DTG and DTG Jan has handled this situation has been a poor one.
One where my reputation is taking damage and now my mental health.

How can I be part of this?. You don’t answer tho nor show any kind of support or consideration for that.
How can I enjoy the game feeling like I do.

No answers. All you keep doing is saying it’s a layer issue. What from 3 years ago. One where only one unit the class 43 was replaced.
Not layer!. And then Two class 395 with a blank over. They look neat and purposefully placed.

So if it’s just a layer issue as you say, fine but I don’t. I’d like others opinions about what’s been happening and I can only do that with a thread open. So you stop closing and I’ll stop opening. If you do then It does look bad when I feel as I do but you will not allow me or anyone else pass open opinions about what been going on.

Feels like you want it to go away and will do anything to make that happen even at the cost to my enjoyment playing the game or being part of this community because of how you have made me look.

Clearly I am wasting my time here.
Just leave this thread open. I’d like to discuss this topic with the community now.

Lee.

 

I suggest leaving this open so our friend can rant (or as he says waste his time) - everybody else can just get on with their lives

 

I’ve tried DM and even gave DTG permission to DM me. They haven’t bothered. I have no option to do it this way.
I feel this should be taken seriously and so done privately but how if DTG don’t bother to do anything private or even want to take it seriously.

I know the risk yet again DTG are making it hard. If this matter is not dealt with then it leaves me no option.
That means I have to leave this franchise again due to how DTG make me feel.

I’ve explained all this to DTG Jan one post that was the avenue for communication yet DTG Jan has closed them and totally ignored the seriousness of what’s been happening from 2023 and a direct link to why I feel punished or treated harshly for no obvious reasons.
When trying to ascertain any truth about what happened all I get from DTG Jan is it’s a layer issue.

I will not expect that and yet don’t want to explore the details of the situation.
The only reason I have to keep opening is because DTG closed them.
Closed the door technically all a sign they want this to go away indicating something isn’t right.

You should know me by now, we have had a brief conversation about CM and where do people go when they have had enough.
Again a sign the game can affect people’s moods. It can make a person react differently than normal because how customers get treated can be a frustrating experience. Like now. What do I have to do to get any answers.

I’ve tried getting answers from the horses mouth, on my own personal TSLP thread I’ve broken down and can clearly see how my mental state deteriorated over time. Why I left.
I did put it all to bed until the re ignition part. So I don’t want to be worrying anymore about if work might get blanked again.
All I’d like is some short of explanation from one source yet how if DTG close that.

I’ve asked for this to be kept open so I can from others.
To find out the truth and then I can relax with no issues that would prevent me from enjoying being able to access the forums and a game I’ve paid for. I DTG did block me then I now they want this simple question of what went on back in 2023/24 and then recently with the 395.

I’m looking for reassurance not hostile reactions or response that will only result in further damage to my mental health because TSW has become part of not my full life routine. If like in 2024 they walk away then it will have drastic effects on my mental health.
When all I want is some of explanation even some form of apology.

But what do I get from a CM. Hassle, when the opportunity to do all this private has been ignored by DTG.
So where would you go if you were in my shoes.
Im not posting out of anger but more frustration than anything. They will not answer or take my situation seriously.
All this is make me look like a raving loon but as you can see I’m speaking my mind in a calm tone with no swearing simply pointing out fact and how I feel. The more DTG make this harder will add to more upset and grief knowing I was a victim of something yet with no other explanation than what else am I to say or believe if the evidence supports these claims.

I’ll have to walk away from a forum where my reputation has been damaged and a franchise I’ve pumped hundreds of pounds in even recently against my own wises. By DTG making this harder, then they’ve have pushed a customer away.
When all this is not new. Soon as it happened I DM DTG Matt in 2024. I’ve pointed all this out in the quotes taken from my original TSLP thread. Where if you back track over that thread you will this matter raised then 2024. No response from DTG.

I’ve been trying but just keep hitting a brick wall. I can’t be part of this community anymore, not with this happening or on my mind.

DTG haven’t helped then nor now. They wanted me to go so the situation does too.
The more DTG closes my threads when I ask for this to be kept open so I can defend my position and reputation by discussing as I am now with you will only point towards that statement. They want me gone and this situation from being publicly exposed.

All this has destroyed my passion for TSW and being a customer to DTG.

Is that what DTG staff are trained to do. Push customers away not listen to them.
On that point I’d also like to point out that I’ve created two threads, one so the public could share their thoughts and experiences with DT and TSW, then I’ve done one what’s right.

He I think DTG did right by taking note of those threads. Don’t be complacent in business by ignoring customers.
So born was a customer survey.

Anyway, I know what DTG will do next. Probably close this.
I don’t come here to beg, no customer should have to beg or be messed around.
Deal with this with the respect it deserves in a professional setting away from the public.

I can’t be professional if you’re not DTG.
When I’m gone I’m gone I’m gone. Stop closing threads and discussion down.
Leave this one open, people should be free to make decisions without any interference.

Keep this thread open for public discussion will stop more threads and will remove any risk of ban or possibility of things escalating when all that can be prevented if this ONE THREAD REMAINS OPEN FOR DISCUSSION.
I’ve tried to discuss matters properly and privately but DTG will not act on those requests or offers.

✌.

 

To be brutally honest, I would say it's just a game and not worry about it but then that's me.

TSW isn't a matter of life and death, certainly not worth getting worked up over. Yes it's annoying many of us have paid a fortune over the years to DTG and the game largely remains a buggy mess. But enjoy what is good about it and when it starts to grind your niggle fire up another game and play that instead.

 

May I ask what your rant is over in a nutshell.

 

no way he said "hiding me post"

 

I cannot for the life of me make head nor tail of what this is all about. I am sure to OP, this all makes sense, and knowing DTG's product, I am guessing it relates to some kind of bug in the livery designer or somesuch? But I think to assume that game bugs are some kind of personal attack may just be down to paranoid tendencies or an unhealthy one-sided parasocial relationship?

As regards your "evidence of being bullied" which amounts to pics of a train covered in snow? I 100% do not believe DTG have some kind of power to remotely make the wipers/snow melt on a specific player's train stop working. The game would be in a far better state technically if they had that degree of a handle on the engine, frankly.

Can you please explain this in some manner which does not assume we know the convoluted backstory here, and using words which clearly and succinctly outline the specific issues, direct and clearly explained examples instead of pictures with no explanation of what we're seeing, and don't just involve a lot of run-on tangent sentence word salad which ultimately says nothing at all and leaves us all in the dark?

 

DTG will certainly never give you confirmation, and if it is affecting your health, I would stop playing TSW and spamming the forum if I were you.

Either way, your posts are not very clear.

 

I mean this with all kindness, but if a game's technical issues are impacting your mental health this strongly, it might be healthier to take a break for a while. TSW just isn't worth this kind of stress lol

 

I wish people would 'read between the lines' and have a little bit of respect for other posters who are trying to vent their frustrations and grievances in the best way they are able to.

 

If tsw is damaging your mental health, just walk away from it. Stop playing tsw. It's not that difficult because why waste your time and energy and make things worse. Do you really want that for yourself?

 

I mean no offence to anyone in any way when I say this. OP has in the past repeatedly admitted to having mental health conditions and as someone with conditions of my own, that's totally fine. However if your quality of life depends on Train Sim World of all things to such a degree that you have what you have essentially described as a genuine mental breakdown over a bugged livery designer and even having "silly thoughts" as you put it, then I have to be honest, you have a completely different and much bigger problem than just your diagnosis.

This idea that you are being personally targeted by DTG as a company is an absolute falsehood. Why would you, a single player in amongst hundreds of thousands, be picked and targeted? This claim that the Dovetail Games company is specifically targeting you and trying to ruin your mental health like it is a personal agenda is literally only one step away from a person claiming that they're being gang stalked, looking up at a random helicopter flying overhead or some random guy in a shop who happens to go down the same aisle as them and claiming those things as proof that they are under some kind of surveilance. In a previous message you mentioned how the 'vocal minority' are targeted more - no, they aren't. They are just by definition more loud about when things go wrong, when the less vocal also by definition experience the exact same thing, they just don't talk about it. This is the same in TSW as it is in every single part of life as a whole.

The bottom line, and again I say this as a fellow mental health survivor, is that you need professional help. It is fundamentally unhealthy and detremental to your life as a whole to have your entire quality of life depend entirely upon a single video game. And even beyond that, of all the games to play that kind of role in your life, TSW is just about the single worst choice you could have ever made. It is a game which is constantly evolving, where the only certain thing is the lack of any certainty about anything since to be frank, it is and near enough always has been a buggy mess. And as a casual player with little personal investment beyond the desire to drive highly realistic trains, I absolutely love it. But when you invest that much of yourself into something as unstable as this game, you will never be satisfied with it. And it is absolutely impossible and downright unreasonable and illogical to expect that TSW would be capable of meeting the degree of personal needs that you are seemingly bestowing upon it.

I've seen and even used your liveries. They were of an amazing quality and detail, you are clearly a very dedicated and creative person. I relate to this - my own creativities lies in writing and filmmaking. It is far better to depend upon your creativity as a broader spectrum rather than getting tunnel vision for just one outlet, because people like you are capable of so many things if you just look around and apply yourself to it. How about learning Blender? Coding to create mods? True creativity is limitless in potential so long as you don't limit it yourself.

As a final note, here are some pictures from the wider community which prove that you are far from the only person experiencing these issues, even the HST power car one. The Class 40 images are actually mine from when livery designer first launched way back on TSW2, proving that in one way or another the feature has been broken since the start. You are not alone, you are not being targeted, and you need to find a way to move past that misconception because ultimately, DTG cannot and will not do anything to make that happen for you. You have to make the move here, otherwise this will never end. I wish you all the best going forward.

 

I think this might be the most helpful and thoughtful post written with genuine care that I have seen on this entire forum in all the time I have been here.

 

I don't want to be seen as dismissing mental health, because I've had my own problems with it as well, (to the point I was the subject of a missing persons case), but as others have pointed out, if tsw is affecting you so much, you should put it down.

Also, again I don't want to be dismissive, but I seriously doubt dtg would try to target individual users with bugs, because that's probably not even possible, and even if it was, they wouldn't do so anyway. Tsw is just a buggy game...

EDIT; I don't don't know if you've tried talking to someone, and I understand doing so can be hard, or you feel you don't want or need to, I've been there myself, but please try. Even if it's just a friend or family member

 

I can’t go to deep but yes it was a matter of life and death (Mental Health basically ADHD and learning difficulties). Personal stuff basically I see what you mean tho. Similar situation when people get fed up. But I’m not angry I’m quite calm about this situation and see it for what it is, yet still needed to take time to deal with my emotions due to how long it’s been going on with no answer from not one DTG staff member.
On my return DTG still haven’t DM or answered my questions.

I could go on but a feel I’m only wasting my time dealing with DTG. You know I appreciate your comments because you do see it’s not a simple rant but how DTG actions can affect those with mental health disorders. I believe ADHD is a disability too.
A normal person would brush this off most of the time but how it all affected me dealing with unknown mental health problems.

I told DTG all this back then and still today that there actions can have devastating consequences.

TSW is a game but when a working man had is life taken away the game was all I had to keep my going and part of society.
DTG made it harder and so had to leave. Give up on life basically mate. I was near.

It was the only option left to stop the pain.
I’ve had to fight every single day to get where I am now on my own.
If I was to show you all the issues of bugs then still I’d be calm.
This is not a bug issues not the blanking of work or replacing a full locomotive. When asked why no answer.
If it was a big then why couldn’t they tell me this back in 2024 when I reached out.

No offer of support when I contacted DTG Matt regarding how it was all handled and affecting me. Even DTG Jan hasn’t shown any real understanding or support. No empathy, and certainly not what I’d expect from a CM that has to deal with all members.
Be normal or with mental health disorders I’m on medication for.

The problem with those with mental health issues. It can’t be seen like a bruise. Not everyone understands mental illnesses.
Awareness is key and why I try to be honest about my condition so people know.
I’ve been trying a thread out for a place user can go to when they have no one else around.

As fellow men support each other when things might not be as they should from time to time.
Not turn into a kick down fest just to make their life’s feel better at other misfortune of others, or mock those with disabilities.

So just want to say thank you for not being ignorant.

✌

 

Stay strong mate.

 

Thank F#&k for that!!!. Finally evidence.

My life,,,seriously I don’t know what this means to me. 3 years of mental torture put to bed.

Context and me being more open than I’d like.
Last few years have been rough, my whole life has been.
I was a key worker who came down hard with Covid 19. My whole life was destroyed. A working man that had to provide.
Yet was no longer able to do that. My mental health declined significantly due to the lack of support during the pandemic and months/years later with a back log.
TSW became the creative avenue and a way to keep me motivated. It gave me a reason to carry on with some hope or delusions of being a livery designer. I’ve worked hard all my life for others even at the expense of my own health (Jobs).
For once I wanted to do something for me and not give up or walk away like I usually do out of what I thought was anxiety/depression.
So TSW gave me all that, I love to create and has always been a passion of mine. To build or think of new ideas its here where my mind won’t stop and will only switch off when the ideas or out of the system.
I love routines too, no nose no drama. I will do anything to preserve my peace.

So again TSW and LD provide all that. In my mind I felt I was still alive and part of something. I no longer go out, seeing the people and the world as it is now makes me sick. I can’t survive in that world anymore. I see and feel to much,,but I have learnt now.

When I DM DTG Matt (Already open for Team DTG conversations about a black block appearing over the Standard Train Sim Network livery it started to fall apart). I wasn’t in a fit mind to deal with how my body reacted emotionally. I had no answer from DTG Matt so naturally thought it was some kind of personal attack because I hadn’t seen the issue raised before.
I explained how what was going on was making it harder, and to be fair to DTG Matt He did return a message but months later and when I was no longer using the forums.

That’s where I explained things had changed after being in such a bad situation I was eventually seen by the mental health teams and where they confirmed ADHD and many other symptoms such as Bipolar disorder. A mix basically and why finally after all these years of mental illness I had some answers to why I am the way I am.

No support around back then. No Doctors, no friends, and not much support around when I was losing the plot publicly on forum during that period, a period where DTG and the CM’s sat back and watched it happen.
The way DTG handled it didn’t help either because I did want to short the situation of what I wrongly assumed was a direct reaction from DTG after my initial comments regarding poor attention to detail on the models. And discuss matters of my unofficial TSW Project themes and some basic reassurance about copyright infringement because that’s one big worry of mine.

To speak to a CM about those themes so I don’t have to worry about doing anything without DTG permission.
Just some reassurance or even a quick chat with a DTG staff member to clear any confusion or misunderstanding up of the past.
That’s all I was looking for and you are the only one that’s been able to do this after so long.
As I say I did put it bed or try let sleeping dogs be, but as you can see on the 395 (Yellow Box) then I had to find some answers or explanation of what was going on and what had happened previously with the class 43. The fact that since playing TSW with TSW2020 I’d never seen a livery in such a state. I seen a direct connection between my comments and what livery or unit was targeted or felt was targeted. The rest is history as they say.

And here we are today. You have provided the evidence and insight.

I fully understand what you say, I guess it’s all part of my personal wider experience and just who I am.
And I do take fully responsibility for my poor judgment and so will apologise to DTG for wrongly assuming DTG was directly involved.
I would have never have gave up back in 2023/24 if they had given some answers or reassurance.
Does DTG and any media platforms have a responsibility to make or provide a safe space for all.
Ie do or would that mean it’s a duty to protect members that are in some ways more vulnerable in a public space.
They try to be like the rest but naturally seen or treated differently by others.

I think that’s a completely different story and one I’d like to hear more about from your perspective some time if that’s okay.
Your more than welcome to DM or I might set a general discussion up about mental health or how social interaction on media platforms not set up for safeguarding all its members.

All I can say is I’m a different person now. I took a different path in life because it felt I was pushed down to learn to grow and be who I am today.
A Master of my emotions. Even if it has been seen that I lost the plot over a bug that to me wasn’t and why I responded as I did back then.
Remember this was in 2020 onwards with 2024 being the last straw.
I have loads of bugs yet don’t share them or even rant.
Again all I want is peace. No Drama and why I personally choose to be alone in life.
Why be fake around others to fit societal norms or expectations, I’d be lying to myself and I don’t lie.

That’s what’s important about this. My peace. I did all I could to find peace of mind after spending so long with it after Covid took my independence away. Creativity and creating gave me peace. So when all the upset came up with no form or reasoning it took my peace away. Damage to my peace of mind and indirectly affected my overall mental state when a simple response like this would have avoided all this unnecessary stress and drama to a forum member that at the time wasn’t well.

Looking back I guess it was cry for help because DTG and this forum was all I had.
I couldn’t venture out further because I knew I wasn’t well or strong enough to cope.

That’s all different tho now. I’ve spent a long time watching man and learning about every inch of my mind and body.
I see the world differently that’s all. And without being at the mercy of my emotions or seek for validation.
The hint of self destruction is perfectly stamped on my mind. Trust me I have no intentions of doing that.

All I want to do is relax and enjoy TSW and being part of the community. You mentioned about doing other things, I do but again that’s a completely hidden aspect of who I am. Yet I’d like to find others that share the same passion for creating something.
A bigger vision. Yet I know my limitations so can’t grow without others with the skills. I’d love to do YT videos as filming is an interest of mine.
Old filmmaking and photography.
I have some kind of leaning block that stops anything else going in. All that does go in is non stop ideas or logical reasoning to problem solving. Again TSW has always been here as my first choice of calling a home so to speak.
I have no wants or desire for more media attention. No Facebook no nothing really, I know when I don’t fit in.

And like I say peace is all I seek, so I can focus on what I love to do. And that’s what I’ve been doing.

I took some time away from the situation and not give in or walk away just because my logic was overwhelmed by emotions.

And so I’ll end the saga of being targeted and again apolozie to DTG and to DTG Jan for not believing him. And for keeping this open so I could find the answers and some reassurance that’s all.
Again I can’t blame others if they are not aware of how they’re actions may seem normal, yet with a condition can be a stressful time to deal with it all.

Now on to the photos you’ve shared. I must say I have never seen anything like this on my own work, except for when TSW3 ported over to TSW4. Livery’s had missing layers like on the class 66 Freightliner. Even on PS4 have I seen such poor layer quality.
I think on the one with faint lines is just a layer not set or slightly tilted so the decal sets properly over the whole body and any recesses.
If not it can leave odd lines.
Again tho and with respect I have encountered many issues or bugs but don’t share because, well I understand what TSW is.
I’d only be pointing something that’s already known by DTG and commonly excepted by the community.

Like this as an example. Faced many challenges and issues with models or product quality.
I don’t post about them because it’s a common fault with the game. And members have given DTG feedback.
We’re just waiting on DTG to take note and fix long standing problems.

I’m done now tho. I’m glad we could discuss the matter candidly and do appreciate your honesty.
This has been completely blown out of proportion tho. The matters happened when I wasn’t well.
Today tho that’s all different.

Like the Lense of a camera we only get to see what the person behind the camera films.
How it’s all done and received is a matter of perspective. The eye can see but what’s being watched is a matter of the mind behind the eyes.

It’s just a matter of perspective. The Frame.

Evidence and your own personal opinion has set the frame, thus changed my perception on matters.

The Mood, The Mind, The Mouth.
The Black Dog couldn’t be by my side.

Darkness is the only place we find ourselves to stand by yourself.
Bravery starts with looking within.
Here and with the upmost respect I don’t see that being or having what some say is mental health issues and this make one a survivor for getting through.
My words might be strong here but I disagree with being classified at mental or a survivor.

We all have different paths. Some see more paths than others, it take a brave soul to venture through a life that could be considered not normal by society standards. But what if what we see and how we perceive it all is a gift. A gift that only when mastered offers strength where sadly some never seen the other paths because they didn’t see them full stop.
The chains of society have devastated some men’s wills. I know because many have sadly passed and I will not accept man is ill.
We just haven’t been shown a different path away from the world some believe is final.

Support and awareness is all those with hope have. I’m not a survivor or a man that looks down on others.
I just learnt to understand who I am and where I fit in with the plan.

We’re NOT survivors my friend were Masters of US. The dark days and the hardships taught me that.
Survivor is an attack from something, those attacks or emotions over logic is where using logic means these attacks are not attacks but small signals we receive if using the word mental to describe hyper emotional intelligence. To see and think of things differently.
That’s a gift once mastered make a difference if one becomes a statics or not.

A Master is what remains not a survivor.
I feel that’s the only time if talking about mental health awareness means finally accepting who we are, including our faults and past mistakes. I leaned tho so are they mistakes.

A path most don’t take my friend because it’s not always seen by the majority.
It’s not an easy path but if travelling with wisdom then that makes all the difference in the end.

The curse and the gift only the strong master.

Thank you so much for ending this journey.

Peace of mind thanks to you my Brother.

✌

 

It’s done. How I write and explain is a direct attack taking my condition into consideration.
You’re not aware of that tho and why would I need to go further in detail than I already have.

We all write differently but the point is clear and not my fault if you’re nit taken the time fully understand.
It’s not about snow.

I wasn’t well in 2023/2024 after long standing effects of Covid 19 and again I have been open about this but you have considered it waffle.
If so then I will not repeat or explain myself again.

It’s done. Out of the noise came a member to listen too.
If you are unaware of mental illness then please I ask you and others to be more mindful and show some respect.

It’s not all apart being part of the problem or the majority.
Mental health in any context is not a laughing matter. I’ve seen a few instances of bullying like the gif gang members, I can take it.
But what about those that are more vulnerable.

Who cares about them trying to fit in or lead a normal life. Yet all that get is this.
Why I choose not to be part of your world nor man games of hidden mask.

Therefore I have my answer now. I’m not staying here for games or popularity contests.
Only the weak seek validation, I seek truth.

Have a good weekend now
✌

 

I really think this a conversation for a different forum. Not this forum i understand what your but maybe seek advice/help from professionals. I wish you well though and try and have a happy Christmas.

 

I will say this.

Inside there’s always been a voice or ambition to help others. Not me my Job is to take the flack.
If one’s life is filled with validation from others then that’s all they seek and live for. Once gone then what.
Left with them selfs.

I have no need for the validation because my life doesn’t depend on others to validate who I am.
Remember if you don’t know who you are then the world will.
I’ve been alone all my life so I’m pretty use to it by now.

The people that have no voice and suffer more than we ever know are the ones I stay strong for.
It’s my Job according to Plato

So don’t worry about me my friend, we’ve spoken a few times and well it wasn’t to bad

We are different but no need to be nasty between brothers and sisters. Like families they fight but they always stick together.
That’s the only thing that hurts me.

The outside I came here to hide from. I’m not the one that’s Ill, the world is.

We forgotten how to love fellow humans.
But who am I to Judge.

✌ is all I seek and for all.
Lee.

 

Mate I've suffered from mental health problems all my life. I know how it feels, if there's one thing I've learned, it's your on your own, most people don't care about nothing but themselves. That's just human nature.
Keep your chin up and a smile on your face, don't let the fockers shoot you down.

 

stay positive you are part of a really great community here with loads of helpfull and friendly people. You will meet the odd troll who sits in a basement all day just block and ignore them. If you ever need someone to reach out to or have a chat my inbox is always open never feel you can’t have a chat mate.

 

Yeah I was the same growing up. Luckily I was part of a big community, every one looked out for each other, although I was different I was treated the same as everyone else, back then I was just a bratt, mental illness wasn't a thought on anyone's mind. Nowadays with social media yeah it's different. Nobody goes out anymore, people have 1000s of friends on fb and don't know any of them.
There's always someone to talk to I know. There's plenty of people willing to listen. But you are still alone, I mean the fight with mental illness is a battle only you are in control of.

 

That is always a nice thing to read that you were part of a group of friends who treated you the same as they are that is what you call true friends. Totally agree with you that the fight with mental health is something only you can control but knowing there is someone who is available to talk to is always a nice thing to know as well. I know we was having a discussion in another thread here earlier but honestly if you ever feel down please please please always remember i am at the end of the inbox drop me a pm never sit alone and think you have no one to talk to i will talk to anyone as at the end of the day we are all human we all have feelings and sometimes we just need that time to talk to someone to get something off our chests.

 

Hey thanks for being so understanding. I’d just like to say I might come across as ignorant myself in how I speak.
I’m just an open guy that see past all the silly stuff and so speak openly because I mean no offence to you or anyone.

I perfectly get what you mean too, I try not to entertain it or feed them the energy they need.
Sometimes it’s like being back at school but this time I’m slightly wiser than I was so it can be like water if ducks back now.
Anyway it’s all pointless arguing with others. I don’t you know nor anyone know the real me. Respect and understanding.
But like you say and I can’t agree with you more that today in society most prefer to put others down than ask a simple question or not say anything at all. I do using the old saying “if you got nothing nice to say then say nothing at all”.
Even when reaching out like I did to DTG Matt to find out what was going on and then even DTG Jan I can’t help but feel they are not aware of their actions or lack of support when I wasn’t in a fit mind to use logic.

Like now for example.
I’ve had this blocked. Would have been in a complete mess this time last year.
And I’d assume this will be too.

This is where I can start getting stressed and anxious. Why I needed assistance still with DTG Jan but didn’t bother investigating further.
I worry when its to copyright and how do I short things out with DTG if I need assistance. Who to talk too etc.
You see it’s not like I try not asking for permission or assist from TOCs or rail operators but they never contacted back.
It’s so frustrating and so it the times like now and when work starts getting blocked playing the game or being involved with the franchise gets to me.

I don’t know which way to turn and even when approaching DTG explaining how things like this affect me they don’t seem to understand.
At times there’s no help or assistance that I can understand if reading up etc. I struggle with the legal texts on what I can or can’t do in certain circumstances of rights.
And hey don’t worry I’m not placing this on you but just trying to explain how this game can affect me. Meds or not.
It’s still stressful that could result in walking away because each work I do could get blocked so passion can start diminishing.
A normal person let’s say might shrug it off, I can’t you see. I loop if I don’t finish what’s planned in my head.
Ideas pile up and can lead to more frustration because I can’t move on.

So yes again it’s not as simple as some people think. Each day is a battle. Why again I took the route I did.
It’s why I feel those suffering with any form of depression or mental health issues or disorders are stronger than they them selfs give credit and society in general for dealing with day to day life.
Why I’m endlessly trying to help create a space or environment away from people that are more likely to put others down for fun.
It’s wrong full stop. I’m sure if I mocked someone’s else disability I’d be shot, Banned you name but here people mock those with conditions that are legal classified as a disability. Where’s the CMs then.

And what makes me laugh the most is that DTG and its staff members try to help bring awareness to living with mental health.
Yet one word of I struggle and could I get some assistance from them I’m left how all this went.
They didn’t care for how 2024 left me, not one reply or concerns over my public state of mind.

People pretend to care about mental health but for some reason carry’s a stigma still to this day.
Why if I was to say being on this game or community isn’t good for my mental health. I’m fine away from others and society.
It’s the cruelness of this world that does the damage. Why I don’t go out nor have a single friend.
Even when discussing my wild theories about how man life’s and society in general they feel the same. Today society on what society offers is or has the direct link to what creates society and makes society ill. To that I say this, if we know what the problem is then why is there no fix for society yet. The Doctor said well I don’t know.

If that’s the case tho why take a tablet if I’m okay but it’s the environment I’m in that’s bad or ill.
The dilemma my doctors face.

I’ll save you the low down on all that and so will again thank you for being understanding over all this.
You’ve been very open also by offering DM access you if needed. The same offer is open to you if ever you want to talk.

I’ve also been told by my inner voice to seek good men. My quest for the sleeping angels. Not the fallen.
I’ll only welcome men of a good heart

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I kinda of agree, and I did say I’d look at opening a general discussion up for DTL forum members to meet new friends or offer support.
I’ll see past the insult of believing I or anyone else may need professional help.
If this helps clear any misunderstanding then I question the knowledge handed to them (Doctors) and not the knowledge I hold.
That’s the questions for them and one no ones has clears answers for.

You can’t go discriminating against members by saying to go another forum. We’re doing no harm.
No one forces you to read. Yet you are here for a reason and so I must remember this myself and respect that too
I do get where you’re coming from.

Plus it does say issues and if you feel we need professionals then we are in the right place to get issues fixed aha aha.

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It’s all good in the hood.
But you hit the nail on the head. Human nature.
Is it?, if we can be aware and so alter our nature. Man can harm other man if that’s in the nature of our ancestors. The Ape. Look at Apes and thats man in simple form. Now we understand our nature so that means we don’t have to act only because it’s in our nature.

We can be cruel but as intelligent species that’s evolved over Apes have the power to change our world.
Man can control Mother Nature. If we care to stop acting like Apes

You could say that if you and I do believe and I do believe man still acts on natural instincts then who’s actually to say man has evolved.
We can’t have if still ruled by human nature. A large human brain should by now over come that.

So again I can be kind and most certainly evil. A wrath. I can control my human nature part of me not to act like a simple man.
Man today has the option if they only think.

Anyway I might set another little thread up so other members can discuss away from this topic section.
But that’s fine by me.

The purpose of life is not to join the majority, but to escape the masses of the insane.

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PS. I’m a Stoic… I do everything on my own. Always have. Meaning no deep meaningful relationships. But I will say this, I will or you have broken my guard down. Maybe I do need others to talk to, I’ve said a few times in my mind that I’d like to be able to help others.
You’ve made me see this today. I thank you for this and sharing your story too.

I know things like this are not for everyone but I don’t feel I should hide away from any kind of negativity or stigma about being open in society about mental health, so again I’ll set something up or have a look around so this kinda of stuff is discussed placed in the right topic section.

But thanks man, I feel I owe you one. So my DM box is open to you if you too need a chat sometime.
You stay strong to brother.

Remember simple men act on instinct and respond from human nature or programming. Intelligence men have instinct and react with logic.
The power to rewrite human natures coding

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