Liveries Waffles And Jam. Open Project.

Okay, I am opening this thread up to help lift my moods. Anyone that knows me is aware I say to much and so worries too.
I also waffle as some of you will know and something I am shamelessly have to admit too

So let’s have some fun with the word Waffle and Jam.
I have set Waffles and Jam as a fun joke fictional livery for all to participate in if you the community so wish.
You could even drop by for a waffle or two.

The basic theme is fun, so have some fun with this little project. Yet it does serve a serious purpose tho and in time all will be revealed. So a quick hint, it’s to do with issues of men not talking.
Hence the little company Waffles and Jam.

As I say tho can’t say anything else on that side yet.

So yes it’s a little place to be a big kid and have fun Gents.

I’m 45 Gents the kids still in me because I didn’t let him fade.
Don’t grow old and bitter. Stay young at hearts Gents

Rigbsy.
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I understand the whole 'tasty surprise' now. Waffles and Jam.

Still not quite sure what this is, but I'll wait for the further explanatory announcements before asking my questions.

And, I have been on a Voyager today and am due to go on another soon, so my reading comprehension level may be low once again. I practically live on those trains these days!

 

I have a feeling this thread may have been made to also help community members who may need to talk, but can't the opportunity to do so, whilst also enjoying themselves making liveries or scenarios.

Oh nice. Despite the controversial view, I don't mind the voyagers to an extent. The Virgin Trains West Coast ones were great I feel. There was enough capacity meaning that overcrowding barely happened. The seats were fairly comfortable for an hour and a half's journey. However, AWC and XC seem to have made short formations making them unbearable. I say good luck to you with your journey on XC

 

Good afternoon,
Well this is a pleasant surprise . This is a great way to try and help some in the community who may need someone to talk to, or even just someone feeling down and wanting to lighten up. I might have a pop at this here and there to see what I can produce when I'm not making liveries for Bernard, Speedfreak or for Rail 200, so stay tuned everyone

Take care,
JPlayz

 

Hey that’s what’s is all about when the world of TSW can get a little too much even serious. Or even if you just wanna get away from it all and be a big kid, chat to mates like we did as kids.

So I’d just like to release something. By talking about DTG, then it getting to me, I’m tired and very emotional.
That’s how I feel today. That’s all.

How do you feel today Jplayz?.

 

Oh more Jam to come yet

And that’s okay, interesting you say about your time spent on Voyagers. Sounds very interesting
A chat for later, or when we have more time to focus?.

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I'm good thanks. I'm still about angry about the mistake I made with the art graphics, but I'm happy otherwise. I've been trying out Cardiff today. The lack of platform connections bugs me to no end, especially as it gives you a teleport option. But it's nice to be driving and riding on the TFW 150 and 153 again. All I'm waiting for now is the 197 and 221 to enter the game for the North Wales Coast.

 

One mo

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Oh the Voyagers are great! I love them! But I have underestimated how fatiguing train travel in general can be at Rigsby's expense, so I'll have to revisit this thread at another time to make sure I have fully understood the whole story before saying anything.

 

Good to hear, yet not so much about the mistake. I’ll will catch up later when I get five, is that okay?.
Glad you’re enjoying the new product too, but what’s the main concerns with the points you made?.

You know me I’m not the sharpest tool in the shed

Catch you tho, enjoy the rest of your day.
As always it’s been a pleasure mate speaking to you.

Have fun I will try have some down time and make a livery to help explain what this basic project is here.
Play around with the theme and topic for a mess around livery.

See what other humorous ideas or liveries others have.

Make the world a Brighter Place. To Bring Sunshine and Laughter like the Great Morecombe and Wise song.

Laughter brings Sunshine.
I feel we have forgotten that.

So yes a place maybe for tears and for laughter.
Unload, recharge.

Rigsby.
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Phew I'm glad someone does. The only reason I didn't like the Avanti ones was because when they were used on the NWC, they were often 5 carriages as far as Holyhead all the way to Euston, which was a nightmare when getting on at Chester. And even then that's when it wasn't cancelled. But I digress.

 

Of course. I'll speak to you later

 

Hey don’t be silly you sound like you work, I don’t, I have the time because of that reason, yet for someone I see as valuable person I’m kinda rushing to speak as I feel I am letting you down, makes me feel it’s at your expense by constantly waiting for a DM.

So it’s kinda of hard to tell someone don’t worry without sounding to condescending.
Hopefully we can relax here and speak freely.

We make time for those that matter most, I am doing this as we speak, because I respect you.
Let make some arrangements to meet one day, have a brew and a chat a?. (Not in Persons) lol.

I’ll be glad to see the back of this 390, this is your fault Jplayz!.

You let me join your little game now look what ya caused. Hahahaha.
(Said in Jest).

Later tho Jimbo. Enjoy you day savour it not let it rush by. We miss all the little delights in life.
Little birds playing the sounds of Summer.

Like Bruch Lee once said. “DON’T look at the Finger, for you will miss all the world around it”

Life my friend we can flow or crash like water. I love Bruce Lees philosophy.
Now he was a wise man

Hence the Game of Death.

Lee✌.

 

Ok. Hopefully the fatigue has worn off; time for a megapost response:

I now understand waffle to be the verb, not the noun. It is a play on words. Very good.

So the primary purpose of this thread is to talk (the waffle) with a side of livery-creating (the jam) that will be explained in due course. I imagine the livery is to help get conversations flowing.

Makes sense. I missed the waffle pun on the trains yesterday - another example of the fatigue from train travel.

I look forward to seeing what you make! Your liveries are always stellar.

I understand now. Talking - the biggest relief of stress, especially when someone listens.

I'm happy to chat about Voyagers, not really sure where to start, though. I've always been taught about the dangers of the internet, which is why I haven't specified which Voyagers I took and where they took me. It's also why I picked the broad name - Voyagers - rather than something more specific.

I don't have the route. What is this 'lack of platform connections'? Is it that the bridges and underpasses that allow you to switch between platforms 1 and 2 aren't there?

Holyhead to Euston with 5-cars - I can only imagine how crowded that would be!

 

I accidentally pressed 'post' before finishing:

Not at all. The way I see it, the longer I wait for a response, the better, since it means you've found something good to occupy yourself with. It's how I view all my friends. If they give responses to my texts, then they are less busy with their work or videogames or YouTube and it is now my responsibility to keep them entertained. I haven't actually tested this theory, but I like to think of it that way.

As BBC Sherlock Holmes said,
'Work is the best antidote for sorrow'.

I would have said no had you not clarified that this would not be in person. Over the forums, I am happy to meet one day once my major work is done.

I like that quote a lot. I'll remember it!

Very good. I see what you did there!

 

Thank you. I think it's an important topic as there is a given standard for men in society so I feel this will help in more ways than one. Which brings me on to a surprise livery I have planned for Rigsby's company HookHaul. It will be under this theme, but with a few extra details. I'll make a small announcement when I've made a start on it and have a clear idea of what to do.

Ah yes just that. For some of the stations on Cardiff you can't actually walk between platforms (no underpasses/overbridges can be used) which I find really annoying. Even Platform 0 at Cardiff Central which can be accessed by the main entrance isn't accessible and can only be accessed via a teleport option.

Yeah the service was quite poor. I'm not sure whether it's been improved since the Evero's have been introduced as I haven't used the service for a year now. But it was awful. I had to stand in the gangways with my massive suitcase every time I used it. Surprisingly, the Chester to Crewe shuttle had better capacity and that had three cars, not five.

 

I see. Is that prototypical? I know some stations require you to leave the station to change platforms so is this simply not simulated in the game?

Actually, most of my journeys are spent standing up next to the door with my suitcase. I like it. You get to meet so many people on the train. I once witnessed an exchange of Instagram profiles between a dog owner and a dog photographer. Then they spoke about how good illegal drugs were. That part was less enjoyable.

 

I don't believe so. I think it's permanent which is a shame you can see the stairs going below some of the stations, but you can't walk down them. All you can do is teleport to the other platform at stations like this.

Yeah I've never really travelled for leisure on a voyager so I guess it was more stressful for me. I'm not sure whether your journey is for leisure or for business, but I think it wouldn't be as bad for leisure as you wouldn't need to be somewhere for a set time. Oh dear. I can imagine. Still at least you got to ride the train though I suppose.

 

Oh I see. I thought the teleport option was just Fast Travel, but you meant they created a specific teleport option because they didn't want to model the crossings. Understood. That is a shame.

I'll be honest, I don't know whether its for leisure or business either, but I always leave far too much contingency time for delays and such. Yesterday I didn't have a suitcase and the journeys were quieter so it was nice sitting on the seats!

And it is true. I think part of the reason I like the Voyagers that I'm on is that they're being replaced very soon indeed. I can't wait for the new trains to replace them, though!

 

Hey, sorry I can’t join in today, I’m sure you all understand.
I run on, well adrenaline I don’t know, I’m always pumped up when there is a Job to do.

But now she’s gone, I have nothing left. Yet just about one last burst I think.

And guys sound like you both having a nightmare of time today.
Maybe I might win the lottery one day, buy myself a seat in power so I too can pull the strings on those that waste the most valuable thing we have.

Time. And the time we spend in conditions (Environment) that can become stressful to the body.
Being treated like cattle.

So the only advice I would give is escape it all, even if it’s for five minutes.
Recuperating the body and mind. Don’t think about the mess if it all look at all the advantages of what could be improved.
It’s how ideas are born by thinking positively in a bad environment. Cope under pressure, less stress.

In low power mode that’s all my brain can deliver at the moment.
Put think about it.
You can add stress by thinking negatively in a stressful situation.
Or you can think differently or positively by reducing stress in enabling one to be calmer more relaxed.
Relax the mind relax the body.

Mind over matter.

See where others fail Gents.
Why I love the saying,
The purpose of life is to NOT join the ranks of the MASSES, but to ESCAPE the ranks of the INSANE.

Relax, turn your phones off, Laps tops etc. Disconnect from the outside and plug into your inside.
Escape the mindless noise and actions of what’s around up.

To complain will never fix a thing to see where a problem is and how to fix the problem that’s gives rise to complaints, is how I feel we make a change to the world we live in.

Don’t let the problem work you, you work the problem.

Bye for now chaps.
Just laugh at it all, I do. If I didn’t then I’d be laughing like a Mad Man. I would’ve submitted the Masses.
Let them beat me down with incessant noise. And to see man act so shameful to others.
That’s what gets me angry. I can’t watch now, and given in watching.

I wait and while waiting watch On the Buses or Fawlty Towers. I wait for mankind to see the errors of their ways.

Right I’m going that feeling of power over me is coming back.
I must go.

Lee✌.

 

It's fine Lee. I'll post some updates later for you for the HH livery. As I say, you should rest. So I see you're taking on my advice You've done well with the 390 so it's fine for you to take a break.

Oh no I'm fine really. I just want to try and help the thread move along. I'm going to continue the graphics today. I know where I went wrong and know how to prevent it so I'm fine.

Yes that is very true. I pushed myself too much with people who generally despised me. I will explain this to you in private when we have that chat as I say. You know about most of what happened before, but before I ever go public, I wish to talk to you and you alone about it which I'm sure you can understand

Take care my friend,
JPlayz

 

That is a very good point. In saying that though, I don't think the voyagers will get replaced for a few more years. At least the one with XC. The ones GC hired might move to XC with the rest of the 10 ex AWC voyagers which were sent to XC. Heh, at least you can do some trainspotting in between Might be something for you to try out on CC on the 801 maybe? Wink wink, nudge nudge lol

Yeah it's annoying. You can't even go onto the concourse at Cardiff Central which is annoying. I would have liked to see all the departure boards and the like for the immersion

 

Hello and a very good evening to you.

I’m here to say I’m worn out, not well. I can get very emotional when in this state of mind.
So I know a lot has been going on and wish I could be with you all.

This isn’t a place just for me tho. I’m so glad to see two members getting on like a house of fire.
My moods are lifted by seeing this, because this a place for a chat, or even lets others know how they feel that’s all.

Talk. I found this out with CALM and M.I.N.D.,and ironically just seen this.
https://forums.dovetailgames.com/threads/a-thank-you-message-from-the-calm-team.91474/#post-999651
I chuckled to myself seeing after all that happened playing this game and what LNER failed to act on.
It’s would led to my fall and why I was sent for more test, and why only after 40 odd years found out I could have many mental health issues.
The Fact DTG never even said thanks for me making this.
Actions can have devastating and long lasting consequences on people.

So doing what I am now I had no intentions, I’m action on emotions because what happened wounded me deeply.
I could never move on because I never got any answers.

I’m I bitter, no I learned a lot about those people. And so find it quite funny to see a post or announcement about CALM and the word I don’t like. Because if I’m being the most I’ve ever been, the IT, that word was my only way out.

Yet I felt I could fight back, I asked for Gods help. I begged.
Is he the power the one that I feel is in me. I did ask for help.

And things did change. I’m not religious tho, so why help me.

I don’t know and as I write I feel this is to emotionally open. But it’s true.
And because of that and how my emotions affect the way I express then I think I best go.
I’m a deep Guy lads. So why I best stay away for a day or two.

If weak then that’s when a force or a foe can be an act of good or an act of evil.
You see I found the stronger I got the more evil came my way.

Why I walked and not returned to that GWE thread. A bad energy, I felt it.

So yes, way more than what I wanted to say, only meant to say the first part but you see how I go.
Yet seeing that announcement about CALM as I say hit me in some way. The irony of it all.

Fate?. Or others making up for their mistakes, I can’t fully answer as to a reason why.
Only go off actions. Not words. To take responsibility for both.

Okay Waffle over, I’ve finished with the Jam now
I will replace what I’ve used

Night all.
Lee✌.

 

Gooooood Mornings all.

Today I feel slightly better, I’m still a little emotional tho after looking at how well things have been going and watching you two have a chin wag.

Unload chaps. Don’t let days events grid us down what ever they might be.

Enjoy your day all.
Oh what a beautiful morning oh what a beautiful day, I’ve got a wonderful feeeeeling everything’s going my way
Singing that song would help me get through the days when I had to try creating a positive outlook on life.

Singing can help release any pent up emotions or energy. That’s why I found any

Bye for now.

Lee✌.

 

I hey sorry to bum in, but would I be right in saying if departure boards are there in real life in DLC time relation then they should be there.
And if not, then why aren’t they there?, do you see any logic or reasoning to not adding them?.

Lee✌.

 

Morning Lee,
Glad you're feeling better Yeah it's surprising really. I haven't really spoken to Aeronautics much so it's nice I guess to talk to other people I may not have spoken to before.

I'm glad you feel like that anyways. I guess things are starting to look up for you You're surprise should be ready by the end of the week, so keep an eye on that. It's for you, for the thread, and for Hookhaul (your fictional company) as well.

Take care,
JPlayz

 

Hey it's fine Yes I believe they should. Take Milton Keynes Central for example. In real life, there are departure boards just outside the over bridge for the platforms connecting up to the concourse. DTG didn't add these which is annoying as it's a station I use a lot. I think it damages immersion as when you know something as obvious as departure boards should be there, and they aren't, it's really annoying. The only logic I can see is corner cutting because the concourse wasn't accessible before the main WCML update in December. I'll share some pictures in a sec of what I mean.

 

Here's a picture of the PIS displays at Milton Keynes Central (MKC)
It just really gets my goat when it's something this obvious

 

My participation is low due to workload, just in case anyone was wondering.

I find music to be quite good indeed if you find the right one. What is your opinion on the Train Sim World menu music? Which one of the three do you like most?

Indeed! If it weren't for Railway 200 and Rigsby's organisation, I would have never really met you all. I've never really been one for Creator's Club, so seldom visited this subforum. After joining R200, I visit the Creator's Club subforum almost daily!

Despite this, I still don't care much for liveries - I much prefer driving trains than painting them and I probably wouldn't care much if any of mine get taken down - but it has been great seeing everyone's creations while I've been here.

Right. Back to work. Motivation is low but so is time so we press on.

 

Well that’s why it’s a more relaxed approach, just have a chat, it’s taking isn’t it
No discussion about a specific subject where disagreements or unrest could unfold.

A little place to come say if we just need to release or chat on the way home on a train.

HH??, mmmmmmm. Did Bernard accept you then
I’ll will stay out of it mate

I’ve got a few tricks too.

Bye for now you.

Lee✌.

 

Well it should be there then. I’ve said this before.
If a car has wheels then a company will sell that car as complete.
So why do games companies send a game out if it’s not complete.

Hence if DTG rushed this game for sales or marketing reasons then why if a product isn’t fully developed.
Customers will get upset, especially if like you say it’s ruins the immersion of the game because the stations is your regular point of travel.

It’s like some has decide that if access was limited or even some legal restrictions then where is the work around.
If complete blank then that’s taken no care about the situation and what the end product would look like.

Is this an issue of missing station signs that if left all combine to make small is becoming a problem.
A problem of DLCs left behind unfinished?.
Who buys unfinished products.

I wouldn’t buy a car from a show room with no wheels on it expecting an update for wheels a year later.
For why in the world of games and consumer rights should any on line purchases fall outside those rules that apply to other industries.

So yes I can understand your frustrations mate.

Lee✌.

 

Hey we can’t get in the way of a Travel Blogger Me assuming obviously.

Oh music I love all styles of music me, variety is the spice of life they say. I’ve always loved music tho, wanted to make film scores.
I find Thoma Bergersens work along the lines of what my music would be like.
A Tergo Lupi is really good to listen to. Not all tracks tho, just the proper chilled stuff like a song of theirs Heal the Tree.
The haunting sounds give me to strength it hurts, the song is so beautiful.

So if I was to say which music then it’s definitely TSW5, even tho I must admit I turn all music of.
Bang some deep work focus music on. I like Deep Chill or Deep Dub music.
It what gets me in the zone and can easily work for ours non stop. Love getting a flow on with a livery.
I only stop time to time because of decal numbers.

And hey that’s what a community is about, sharing ideas, having a chin wag like now.
Be what ever the case we can all take five here, be part of R200 or not.

Like what I said to a House that offered me power, a voice over the masses.
I said no, why they asked. I said if I stay to one house then I am cast from others.
Not welcomed when it’s time for me to knock. I have heart and belong to one House.

Mother Earth. I want to speak to all men not just one house. So refused to be a tool for men.

So yes this is open for all. We’re all Human and treat you all as a fellow human being.

To belong to one house isolated me from others and the one that already has rules.
The rules of the game. 10 I believe

Be free and may man be free by following the rules.

Be kind to each other that’s all. Respect and so I respect any time you give to R200.
And Hey I’d rather drive because that chills me out even more. I miss driving me trains.
Just not enough time tho.

Rigsby.
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Hey do not give in to no outside force. Wake the lion inside and fight. Call on the lion to motivate you.

The harder life is the stronger we can become till one day nothing can to take away motivation.
Motivation to be. To succeed. To be a Great Man.

Get up and fight!. Never stay on the ground, the weeds will grow, and you will be lost forever.

Rigsby.
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TG08 Man down


Couldn’t be in a worse place for working on livery’s.

So work will be slow, yet I will push on.

Maybe this happened for a reason after we said about slowing down. It’s your fault TG08 hahahahaha.

Lee✌.

PS I would normally never do something like this but it’s so you know TG08 I’m not pulling a fast one.

 

I thought I’d come here because I don’t know what to do because I feel like shutting off. I’ve not been taking my medication for my ADHD and what every the other tablets are for. So I can’t be here in this state as it only takes one little knock like that with what I feel is happening with my work. I don’t trust DTG and never will because I still never got any answers so can never move on.

In a loop living in the past of what happened. I feel I have a responsibility a Team leader too and don’t want to let anyone down.
So I might need a day because I thought I was okay to come back, I don’t feel I am. I’m tired in pain, emotional and now feeling hurt deep inside. How can passion live on if work gets ignored or even manipulated in some way. It’s how I feel so where is my passion to carry on.

Determination to finish what I started many months back. I think I need five gents because again the amount of activity now is absolutely insane. So if I do take more than five at least we all have something now. We’re not completely alone.

I’ll be back Gents. I think I’m having a wobble that’s all with everything that’s gone on recently. I was scared to death about the news with my hand. Still am to be fair.

Hopefully this is just a wobble and I’ll be okay tomorrow. Everyday I wake up different.

That’s my waffle and now I need to add even more Jam.

Lee✌.

 

Back to add that JAM.

Been a bit down in the dumps of late. Change of season so the dark months are not good for me.
Why I was glad to catch something today that caught my attention and interest.
Which gave me an idea and a change away from the heavy or serious type of work recently released.

I need to do something fun, something to lift my moods and for others if down in the dumps.
To help keep models fans happy by keeping circus wagons in production.

And to return some Jam after taking so much with long waffles

The JAM.

66 962 ‘Brighton Elle’ Elephant Themed. A story I read whilst reading about,,

,,,saving the Giraffe Car or model. 66 963 ‘Rapid Savannah’ Giraffe themed reskin was born.

Have FUN

Lee✌.

 

You have been releasing a lot of project-based work lately, so it is good that you have returned here with something nice.

I hope you're doing well.

 

Jimbooooo

Oh how I have missed you, and wish I could slow down to get back to any messages
My mind is working non stop with ideas, yet I think I’m taking to much on to be fair. It’s work that would have been shared with any team mates buts thats not an option. I guess on the livery side I made a promise to myself to get them done.
Yet with so many ups and downs and with TSW6 I think it’s a big ask to get everything I planned out in time.

Need a break creatively too. Focused so much on Railway 200 means I miss out on so many things I’d love to be doing.
Ie give back to this thread as an example, it as a place to try make a silly outlandish livery to lift any moods after any serious chats.

I had plenty of Jam with my waffles and so wanted to make something for long time, yet Railway 200 has been the main focus.
Even in life as I write this I am sat upon 3 feet of cigarette b#tts.
You know I’m a creative person and by doing that helps with other personal things. Once I get an idea in my head tho I can’t rest until it’s done, so one reason why you have been seeing so much I guess. I have a list too which must be completed.
It keeps growing tho

Other than that I’m alright. Stuck on what to do about TSW6 tho. Been having loads of issues with TSW5 which kinda puts me off TSW6.
I won’t go into detail but seem most of what beens purchased has some form of an issue with WCML South unplayable at the moment.
Which begs the question if I do the same with TSW6, will I by this time next year be left with a problematic game or add ons as I do now with what was a fancy new title a year ago. Am I prepared to join the rat race with no added perks really. What I mean by that is this year there is no bonus decals and the only reason I see anyone to rush out a buy is either to just enjoy the game early or to produce the latest liveries or YT etc. I see the last two as being a servant to demands or a duty or job.

I don’t get paid so why rush out to buy if like I say there’s no reason if there no added bonus.

So yes what to do with TSW5 issues and then TSW6 is kinda of distracting me. Making anything I do creatively harder and has been problematic with ideas and themes to push on when morale drops.
Here I have tried to keep my nose clean yet me being me there’s only so much I can take when it comes to game issues.
Why I owe you an apology for my lack of absence personally. To try keep my head down, focus on what I need to get done and then I’m free.

Then like I have always said to you, I can give you my full attention because you deserve that after all this time.
You’re not the only one that doesn’t have my full attention but I made a promise to myself.

To enjoy what I love regardless of what others think. To create and give back for the CC community and for those who do charity work.
I’m not great with that I know but I do all I can to help others.

I feel that only after the storms did I see the full picture of what Railway 200 is all about.
And am I making up for the time lost in the last first few months.
Many reasons, many variables. The past, all I can do I deal with the is now before it too becomes the past.

But it’s never too late to give something back. These are just the first of many joke liveries. Well I went a bit serious as I do but they will get more silly soon. Possibly a little HOT

So my old friend it’s so nice to catch up briefly with you. Let us know how you are but if not I will definitely check my DMs soon.
I need to pass two or few mile stones before I can say enough is enough and that will be the end of it all.
Ease of the gas, and chill my beans hehehe.

Enjoy the weekend two. Even if it’s raining out we still have TSW5
A world within a world.

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I know the feeling. It's quite hard to leave a project unfinished - even though I know I'll finish it later.

September is quite busy for a few of us, myself included. although I don't think a lack of absence is something people normally apologise for. It's normally a lack of presence (although even that needs no apology).

We can only look forward to what the future beholds! Until then, I think I'll take a quick ICE-T trip to Frankfurt.

 

Indeed it is and can now understand why most projects big or small run over budget or time. So many variables regardless of how much foresight or planning is applied. Some projects will completely fall flat and die, then there are some that will be injected with new life to eventually be completed. (Spanish Holiday Complexes are a perfect example.

And yes you’re probably right. Yet I think I was trying to say being absent minded, not taking time to be considerate when it comes to replying to messages. My mind has been absent from people. But would you say being present is on an arranged schedule or being absent from not giving out of free will. Being present is by choice so can being absent. Absent minded in not allowing it to be present if that makes sense.

Anyway to early for ones of these moments of how I see the world.

Future, some live in expectation and some don’t, I guess that’s why some hope or look forward to that future one expects.
And for those that live with no expectation would technically be free from any set backs or even pure disappointment.

Free is KEY, the future is not, only the few will see.

Drive safe

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The Future for now is RED HOT



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I’m here today because DTG looks like it’s at it again. What DTG did last time made me seriously ill. Yet not once bothered.
I find after working hard again on this, DTG are now blanking work and basically knocked me back two years.

I don’t want to quit yet will have to if my health is at risk because of DTG blanking working.
In fact what’s the point.

 

Well. I never thought it would be me, but I've not been feeling quite well today. This thread came to mind, maybe it'll help. It doesn't help that I try and maintain some level of secrecy about myself online, but here goes.

Let's start with sleep. For some reason, I've been really struggling to wake up before 9 for the past week. It sucks as I'm used to waking up at either 7 am or earlier or 10 am or later when the day allows for it. I mean, efficiency is great, but I like to take mornings slow and I haven't been able to. I'm able to sleep in on the weekends, but then I only wake up in the afternoon...

Then the work. Ohh my word the work. There is much to do, including one fairly large task to do, and it's all piled on at once. It's all been given at about the same time and it all needs doing by about the same time. 3 works to do, plus 1 new software to learn. It's doable, but it's daunting, even though I've done worse before. Have I given away too much about my life?

The darkness is setting in (I mean, the days are getting shorter) and I'm clearly missing some other stuff that's been dragging me down, but it's been really hard to stay positive once the sun goes down.

Ooh, I don't like how personal this post is. Obviously, you're reading so I've decided to post it, but I've made every effort to keep "me" private. That's surprisingly difficult.

Oh I guess there's the people too. Some people man. Just people. I'm normally quite good with people, but everyone seems so... negative right now. It's on the forums too, but that's another issue. The few people that I am enjoying being around aren't available all the time (certainly not as much as before).

And lastly, you have 'activity alpha'. I can't think of a better way to hide the actual thing, so it's going to be called 'activity alpha'. Just know, that it's DRAINING. DRAINING! I can't wait for that to be over.

Anyway, that's enough waffle from me. Thanks Rigsby for this thread. Never thought I'd need it - I'm usually very good at positivity, but wow there's been a lot lately.

I'll be better soon, and when I am, I'll bring a more positive and light-hearted post to this thread.

My first waffle.
Thanks all!

 

Perception. Its how people perceive us or how we’d like to be perceived. Ie if I am a person who’s accepted the man with all his pros and cons then I’m content on being me open. Why well like I say we are human, not machines. We have days where we humans suffer.

We can talk about it with other human beings or mask it all up so the world becomes more hurtful not to hurt but to protect.
Man will always feel defenceless when they let the big illusion down. So in society do people wear a cold face just to survive the pain too.
That world I speak of to you in private. The simple world of a slave yet take that away from man and what tools do they have to understand who they are and what’s the game in order to truly survive. They return to the world outside doing what they can to survive not understanding the game to life. The real meaning of it all.

To simple rise above the rest, the masses as they go through life thinking it’s all out of free will.
Or the Chains that can lead to man feeling as you are now. Would I be wrong to say as a working man your life is centred around this yet the man inside can often feel forgotten. I say we all have a God in us, a voice. Our soul or us. Yet do we listen or learn about us.
For if not then all the chains of this world can drag us down if we do not understand how to break free from them in the first place.

Ie I may not need to ask you questions as I know what the issue is. It’s having the KEY to enlightenment, and thus how to be perceived by others. Deep level thinking.
Or to help a fellow human, a brother in need.

So let’s start here shall we. Let’s look at this as not as a community member but a human being.
And why you might see me as someone different on the forum that gives not only you or others including me a chance to be human when outside it feels like humanity has failed. I’ve lived through the 80s, 90s, etc Ive seen society fail. No please. No thank you. No manners.
The whole thing of what made society Ill, and why I took another path in order to see. Seeing can help fix, personally and for others.
And I am done with the chains, and this thread was set up with that in mind.

A place to come when members feel there is no where else to go to feel human again. The world outside is too busy to find time for us, that selfish world, that greedy world. The rat race that drains the life out of us.
A thread free from the chains society and its judgment of man. You a free man and only one will ever pass judgement.
Please them not the masses, free the soul. Understand the game Deep level thinking, that stuff I will DM you about.
I’ve made a massive error and forgot about the ones that where their for me. As a your friend I can see I’ve been a fool by allowing my own passion for work I’ve failed to respond. And I truly apologise for that as a friend and was wrong of me to ignore any DMs as I have for so long.

By being here as I am today I hope by speaking as human we can move past that.

So let’s see how any of what you have raised is linked. Be In the conscious, subconscious or unconscious mind. Each step is linked and so can be reversed. Most is deeply linked to past event or environment changes. Ie what we read see hear etc.

Sleep and the Body clock. Food stuffs.
I’ll ask questions later more privately and I’ll just give a quick run over what could be the problem with sleep.

You see with sleeping I’ve always had trouble sleeping. Even for work, I’d have an average 4 to 6 hrs sleep a night, then I’d drive for up to 13hrs most days. In between I’d try and squeeze in my life or home life. Yet I must remember I’m looking back now at a mind that wasn’t truly in control or there if that makes sense. Not me.
I was just on run mode, just do. Each day the same cycle. By doing all this led to poor health and not able to switch off.
Why well what gets said or happens each day can be on my mind for weeks so eventually the mind can’t shut off, I could never relax.
Ie the thing with DTG for example has not gone away for me.

Food that I ate at late nights and then if I wasn’t working at a weekend I’d possibly find time to sleep. But it’s all bad for the body clock.
Early mornings weekdays but sleep late weekends messes the body clock up.

Add what could be going on with work might be a headache for the mind too, something of doubt in the unconscious effecting the subconscious mind which can make the conscious or you to feel uncomfortable or not able to rest at night.

It’s here I’d try and take a step back and look at your life’s bigger picture right now. Tracing back what either the subconscious has picked up and effecting or been pushed too. Might be more than one file say.
So the further you go back the wider the scope or picture you will that’s been imprinted into your mind the better you might see a link to the original issue. Once seen it can be removed.
Like treating the mind like a battle field, placing everything that’s gone on so we can see what the mind is at war with.

This all depends on how deep a thought is troubling you tho for it to be deep in the unconscious mind.
It can also be on a conscious level that can be easily pushed to the subconscious mind too.
So the things we talked about with what we see and hear in this world.
Ie on the way to work are people jolly or stuck to their phones. There private world where the very technology that was meant to bring man closer means we can’t talk to people no more that’s sat right next to them. Their minds being filled with what ever the system or algorithm has in store for them. Do these people not understand that when man didn’t have phones it allowed the mind to subconsciously communicate with its thoughts and so had time to communicate this with the body. Now tho with technology this removes the brain the time to deal with all the data. This can result in higher stress levels which if unchecked can lead to people becoming less productive and more likely to feel depressed the longer it’s left. We called it day dreaming, yet again with a phone in our hands most of the day then sadly no day dreaming no time for the body to take it all in. Yet the subconscious is being manipulated by what we see on the phones.

Hence that to can lead to depression if all we see or fed is bad news. Or what I call our environment.

So could any of what I bring up be a possibility for why you may feel the way you are.
It only take 5 days to properly prepare or condition a mind.

A simple rule of this. We look at what we eat, so treat the mind the same on what we feed it.
Feed it or allow it to be fed with no conscience then the sub conscious is the target.
But if we can understand the workings of the mind we can filter the data the mind receives, or basically feed it the good stuff.
You must understand you, or the state of your system. Like a computer just do a self diagnosis or re boot the mind a clear out the bad files.
In time you will have the ability to build safety systems naturally as you become more WISE to the world in which we have to survive.
And it’s not just about knowing or having knowledge on what been told but being WISE to the power of you own mind so you can see past the fear that dictates so many things we see and hear.

Hence we have nothing to fear but fear itself. Fear never lives in the realm of WISDOM.
Fear is an emotional state not one of knowledge.

Knowledge is control of one’s mind to let the mind be free from fear and so live with no fear.
The labels and the Chains of socially constructed beliefs that keep man from seeing himself.
And if life is all about being happy then what more likely to bring happiness, being chained to society or being a free man.

Free from judgment so when the time comes you to can be there for when the light fades on others.
We can stand together stronger so no man should ever live in fear of being himself or of attacks from fellow man ever again just for being true.

True to his own heart, his mind, his own soul.
Being free is all I can ever say. Something freedom is a massive thing yet it quite simply unlocking one’s mind from the chains of society.

The Key to true happiness is to say you’ve looked within at who we are and what we stand for. To overcome all demons within ourselves to stand like a king that can rule is own kingdom before leading others to greatness.

Kings or Gods don’t exist in chains. Nor do mankind.
And if we are built in the image of our creator then we must preserve that image of them, and not of a weak mens heart for all that is on offer for the blind to tricked in sure-coming what destiny has spoken for the fallen angels that do not rise for the protection of their fellow brothers and sisters.

To put the wrongs right with LOVE. And only Love. Acts of kindness and humility not with words but acts.
Man can’t do that tired to a world bent on destruction or hate towards others.
Yet as history shows the people of power at not always fond of love. Love don’t sell weapons War does.

So before I end my long waffle, just think it’s all about the money. The War is the illusion, a drive for newer technology and the excuse for such high budgets programs so any benefiting members reap the rewards from what War brings them. Money.
While installing fear or misinformation to the masses so we spend more on protecting ourselves our homes and families.
Technically locking ourselves up from others when they was no fear there in the first place.

What are we left with as a society. One that wants to defend against fellow man.
To hate and to divide.

So tonight try watching some old TV shows. Hale and Pace. The Thin Blue Line. Black Adder. Faulty Towers. IT Crowd. Father Ted.
Even stuff like Minder or Miami Vice. Anything that takes you back away from today.
It’s a looking glass in where man went wrong yet remains a beautiful piece of history when the world wasn’t dictated by the web.

It’s all there waiting. A time of great laughter and on a personal note I’d be lost without many of the old TV shows.

Right well that’s me all waffled out.

I’ll catch you soon though, I’ve been distracted now with this stuff with DTG yet I’m looking at getting this sorted once and for all.

Until then don’t allow the bad to grow, and leave if you find yourself in room with bad. Evil can’t grow if it has nothing to fed on.
And you only should have one master to answer to. You, no one else. Fighting in room is for the weak not the strong, never disrespect the master by staying like fool.

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Hahahahaha. One sec

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Oh my life what are they. What teeth I have left are crying at the thought of biting into those.

Can Jam come to the rescue or time for the bacon an egg?.! Who knows,,,

Come back next week for another thrilling episode of The Exciting Adventures of the Waffle

Cheers man✌.

 

It's been a week - here's my check up.

Rigsby, you are the master of all waffles. I copied your post to a document: arial, size 11. It takes up four pages! Four full A4 pages!

When I said secrecy, I meant things like who I am and where I live. E-safety and digital footprint stuff. You're right, though. Many-a-time I have kept my personal life a little too personal - even from my real-life friends and family (my support network).

I mean, my life is centred around my work (you may remember the Voyagers a few months ago) but I wouldn't say that I've forgotten myself. I will admit that over time I've had less and less time to play Train Sim World. TSW5 was the first to drop below 200 hours a year. But I still believe that I have a good work-life balance. I still watch my favourite YouTube videos, I still have my old games consoles. The workload right now is an anomaly. Normally it's better than this.

I wouldn't say society has failed - at least, not around me. That's not to say that people can't be insufferable sometimes, but on the whole, I've a positive day-to-day experience. That's what compounded my sadness further (more on this later). As for the people I mention in my post: things happen. I'm usually over this sort of thing after a day or two, but that issue took a little longer to move on from. The good news is that I can now barely remember what happened.

You have a strong moral compass Lee. I like that. Mine's been bent a little out of shape and its poles are a little wonky. I'm still working on repairing it but that process takes years.
And don't worry about the DMs (although I can see now that you've responded - I'll get to that in due course). It's not like you disappeared off the face of the forums. You were still active; posting liveries; communicating. The DM can take as long as it wants, all I need is to make sure you're ok, and we all know that a livery project is the greatest indicator of that.

13 hours is a lot of driving. I can barely do a quarter of that without a break. I can't imagine doing that on top of such little sleep. But that isn't the case with me. I used to go to bed with enough time to sleep for my full 8 hours, but I found soon that my usual buffer of 20 minutes to actually fall asleep wasn't enough. I'd be awake for about an hour, maybe two (difficult to tell in the dark), desparately trying to sleep, before eventually sleeping, but then I wouldn't get the 8 hours. Historically, this issue rectifies itself within a couple of nights so I didn't pay any attention to it, but I guess it never did in this case and I'd been running with weeks' worth of lost sleep. It absolutely messed the body clock up. More on that later.

D'you know, I've been trying to explain this to myself for a long time and wasn't able to - yet here you are with an elegant explanation. This is another of my usual solutions is to stop and look into what is causing my state of sadness. Sometimes, I go back through and figure out when I first started feeling sad, and what event happened at that time that could have caused it. More on this later.

I can see the issue with the phones. I'm back on the Voyagers again (yay!) and most of the passengers are on their phones or have earphones in (although, a surprising number aren't! It seems more people want to just enjoy the journey these days!) Granted, talking to strangers can be quite awkward, but that awkwardness was probably caused by mobile phones anyway.

However, in the likely scenario that I'm not stood near a window (happens often) there's only so long that I can look at the same plastic wall panels before getting unbelievably bored, so I do understand why some people are on their phones.

Ooooh this section reminds me of the DMs; it's impossible to be wise. I do like to feed my mind with good news and positivity. It makes me feel good and helps maintain my positive outlook. It's why I still like to watch children's cartoons occasionally. I'm normally quite good at understanding myself - following the self-diagnosis, I can usually put a date on when my sadness will end and then my sadness ends at that date.

Being true to myself. I don't feel suppressed at the moment, not last week either. Just sad. I've said before in a DM that I think I'm comfortable being chained to society. I was wrong. I wasn't doing anything differently to fit in. I wasn't chained in the first place, I'm just fortunate that society easily accepts who I am. The dice of fate was rolled and I scored a 7.

You know it's a good waffle when you've drifted well beyond the topic being discussed. These are the most liberating of waffles. Yes. War does sell more than love. Hatred brings material wealth to a few, but love shares emotional wealth with everyone.

Rowan Atkinson's shows and Fawlty Towers were great. There were some others too, but that was in the past. There's no shortage of shows in the modern day too! Nightsleeper comes to mind - it's been a while since I watched that. Maybe later.

I hope it was as liberating for you to write it as it was for me to read and respond. I hope you get the livery issue sorted out with DTG.

You can always rely on FredElliot to bring some light-hearted humour. I think that's the first waffle submitted to this thread too!


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As for my post last week. I had spent the days both before and after posting trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I looked back, and since it was the earliest issue, I thought my sleep was the biggest contributor and therefore the first target. I tried my usual resetting routine (which involves artificially reducing how long I sleep on a day off, then sleeping really early and waking up bang on time the next morning). This normally works really well with immediate results, but it didn't this time. I tried it twice and both times it failed.

So that wasn't going to help. I thought maybe it was the news (the negativity aspect of my post). I looked through some good news for a while, but it didn't make me feel any better. I've never really taken bad or good news to heart so I probably should have expected that result.

Of course, my mood was worsening all this time. Even posting on the this thread didn't help. That was the weirdest part. I spoke to my friends too, and that didn't help.

That's when I considered another common source of pain for me. The workload. 3 works to do and 1 software to learn. It was weighing down on me the whole time - I was procrastinating while battling the feeling of 'GET STARTED NOW!' that was in the back of my mind.

So I went for the nuclear option. It's not something I do often, but I chose to burn everything as fuel. I basically spent last weekend doing nothing but work. woke up at 12 on Saturday (notice the damaged sleep cycle there) and worked pretty much non-stop until the night time. I then gave myself a couple of hours of leisure and went to bed. Did the same thing the next morning except I also went shopping which took away from the time I was working.

That worked. By burning the negativity like a car burns fuel, I found the motivation to completely finish one of the works I had to do and make good progress on the others. That jump-started a positive feedback loop. The good feeling led to me feeling better, which is slowly fixing all of the other problems too!

Let's start with the sleep. I was struggling to return to my usual rhythm, but I was saved by none other than time itself! In the UK, the clocks go back an hour on the last Sunday of October at 2 am, which just so happened to be two nights ago. That extra hour appears to have been just enough to knock my sleep schedule back in the right direction. I'm now clawing back the hours and that part should be fixed soon enough.

The days are getting darker. Nothing's changed there. I find myself getting home at night, rather than sunset. Such is life, we move on. A stark change in mindset from last week.

The people aren't getting more negative, that is likely me seeing less positivity outside as a result of being sad rather than anything else.

Activity alpha's going to be happening for a while. I've done it before with no issue. I'll just have to stick with it like I've done before.

That leaves the work. The main factor limiting my reparations. I said that there were 3 works to do and 1 software to learn. Now 2 works and 1 software. I still have enough juice to completely finish another task over the weekend. After that, it'll be back to normal. Once those two works are done, I'll return to this thread with a more light-hearted post - a livery! A really silly livery too! Something completely unconventional!

Thanks everyone. As usual, the problems I face are seldom as big as they seem. And while this thread may not have been the magical solution I had hoped for, I can't say that listing all that was happening didn't help me.

Lee, I'll take to the DMs soon. I'm tired now (hooray!)

 

Firstly I can burn myself out with long DM’s as I’m sure you feel that too so again don’t worry about getting back to me.

And thanks for the compliments too do I really go on that much. Unfortunately it’s just how my mind works. A different world or perspective.
One I say not everyone can understand or comprehend. All I can say about that is it all done on a higher level of thinking.

Hence what I think I’ve been trying to say when it comes to private life etc then is that really on show?.
Obviously personal information is one area everyone should be aware of. So I think we share the same feelings about private information.
But respectfully it here things can get a little deeper yet like I’ve already said might have opened your eyes or mind to some of that information or world. Like I mentioned in the DMs about being nameless equates to being blameless if you know what I mean.
Real power or that illusion from where real men of secrecy hide. That’s the power of perception and where I feel our lines have been blurred.
So for clarification purposes then yes I fully agree about worry with personal information.
What we might publicly share openly with others etc, I get all that. What or how I think I’ve gone around it or explained is more towards whats seen and what might be said about us. Again perception. And something else to remember is does it really matter what others think or say. Ie the fine line between being confident in what’s said because what one knows is so strong or feeling weak in the endless quest for validation from others in what’s been said. Because that’s one thing I’ve learned is if one is feeling weak then doubt creeps in with what one has shared publicly.

That would also bring the conversation around to the power of society’s expectations or how great social media or forums have on users minds and emotional state. Why it’s so damaging to a child’s mindset and overall emotional state or life confidence if left on open social media sites. It can just be the same for adults who if feeling down will start to see everything they do as wrong. Silly arguments could remain in the back of the mind for weeks. Our environment and how we might feel about ourselves is all down to the state of the mind and in how it perceives that environment. So the more negative thoughts will stress the body and so the body responds by slowing down and completely destroying our mood levels. Our ambition to do becomes a hour of thinking about it before anything gets done. And what we say or what’s gets said back is baggage for the doubtful mind while in depression mode. The mind set if one of negativity while upsetting how we perceive ourselves and our environment.

So by adding what’s already been said about gaining power of the mind or by filtering what the mind process can help regain control of one’s state of mind. Treat the mind like a fortress where emotions get checked before they enter. Hence any response will be one of clarity and judgment. This helps remove how our body responds to the subconscious and un conscious mind, unbalancing the minds chemicals which in turn affect our body. That feeling of not wanting to do or no drive or ambition to do, are all emotional signals. Signals if unchecked allow one to be ruled by emotions not of clear mind or judgement. And the cycle go on and can lead to further changes, like poor sleeping patterns, poor thinking. Changes in eating habits to how we respond to others at work or in other social situations. I believe it’s called social anxiety. The body’s response to high stress situations the mind can’t handle without being in control of high emotional levels.
This also leads to issues with poor thinking traits, the mind might do what I believe is called looping.
What this means is the mind might think yet do everything to avoid doing, so it loops and loops trying to force logic to bend.
The emotional mind trying to justify what ever logic one has left. It’s all energy wasted and so again the mind and body will show this, by feeling more weak and tired, with a mind feeling overwhelmed or burnt out, a mind where it’s hard to think straight.
One might end up feeling like this if they never see the warnings signs because they are unaware of how the mind operates or can be overcome by hidden tension or build of stress in every day life.
Which leads me back to where I say we need time. The mind and body needs time to properly process all that information, even those hidden feelings or signs or body’s display. It’s so important to have that check point to the mind, you, by allowing yourself time to reflect.
Deal with how one is feeling and then thinking, how it’s affects one and their perspective.
Slowing down and processing it all. Some might not find the time yet from my own experience time understanding ourselves isn’t a bad thing.

Because without understanding who we are or excepting who we are including any other beliefs then how can one expect others to accept if there is doubt or signs or weakness in what one might believe in. A clear example of a confident person. Not arrogant, arrogant is a term used by the weak to justify their position next to a confident person. Here is an example of power play. Or the ability to see past such words by others to describe or undermine you. Again where the point of caring what’s said etc and what we allow to enter the mind.
Why most people react by arguing or passing small insults on an emotional level not one of clarity on the whole situation on understanding how the weak use such terms. Ie what actually words matter and ones that are what they are determines one’s response.

Hence the point of do you stay are walk away if or when faced with such public situations or attacks. Yet look at conversations like a battlefield using a clear mind away from emotional conflict because any words fired have no substance so no effect to you or the mind.
Here some might consider by walking away or ignoring a situation is weakness yet is it if one knows how the game works.
Ie do you become a fool by staying in a room with one. Or walk away with your mind and public reputation intact.
It takes time to master the mind but if one is not master of his own mind then it’s at the mercy of others.
Protecting the mind is preserving your own sanity from the madness outside.

Yet reading on it seems you fully grasp all this and on the up by the sounds of things. So I’ll try not touch back to subject like the state of society for example because one i think you have seen how we feel or think does affect how we perceive things around or in one’s environment.

So trying to get back on track I do remember you talking about voyagers yet not sure if you’ve fully explained what you do.
DM that if you wish but from what you have explained seems like you have a lot on your plate. I think anyone would feel slightly unsettled with so much on the mind. I know when working with coaches I’d have trouble sleeping for I’d be doing vehicle movements in my head.
If one went wrong it might have woken me. So I can fully appreciate and understand what could be going on in your life on that front.

Including that phones are a vital part of most work professionals these days, I accept that. But as you say when people do get bored the first thing they might do is reach for the phone. Here I don’t really see the point because I kinda of see how using them can and will eventually lead to some kind of addiction. I’ve done some research and one interesting article I found goes on about text anxiety disorder which simply means if a person uses a phone all day and for important things or work information then the mind can’t switch off. It means a person will check on their phones or go online looking around and doing anything as long as the mind is now receiving information it’s all about sub consciously missing out on information. What’s being said or who’s doing what. So thinks like FB, Snapchat, Instagram the body’s gets addicted and like any addiction can cause damage to the mind or body.

Hence why I don’t use or have any social media presence because they are designed to make the user addicted and with that I’m not prepared to deal with the mental health problems that comes with being addicted to phones, social media or any major form of technology.
I have enough with the side effects of using TSW, but in all seriousness I understand how hard it must be if phones etc are a vital component to people’s working lifestyles. I’ve been in jobs where being on call was part of my duties so when on call could never really relax.

So for sleep I think I’m ones of those that can survive on limited sleep. When driving I’d be fresh and happy plodding on.
Driving is what I enjoyed but that’s another situation for me today. Yet from what you have experienced then sometimes putting a time or to much effort or pressure to sleep at a certain time can add to feeling frustrated or wondering why am I not asleep yet.
Why I found having a wind down period helped, that meant no extra time on games or being online etc.
A an hour or so reflecting and then chill out to Mr Bean or something like I’ve already mentioned. As long as it’s old and funny I’d be okay and nod off.

So again it’s about settling the mind down and finding what works best for the individual.

But reading on again and trying to not repeat I’ve read what you’re have.
I guess I’ve been to opinionated in places or assuming wrongly yet again with how me mind works it will always see things differently.
Like when you mentioned about discussing subjects we might not normally have with the average Joe. It can open the door to different perspectives or thinking yet again I must be aware that it’s not always what a person wants.
But I think by being free from chains or even not being part with just a public approval rating of 7 then it’s not all that bad
And thus are able to freely express themselves with no fear of repercussions for being human which means it’s not always about approval from others but to freely act outside any approval or judgment placed by any person or group.

Or like you also mentioned about finding a moral compass. Morals can chain a person or people together yet with morals lays a foundation for weakness. Hence it’s important to understand what morals are ones with good intentions at the heart, over one’s some might wrongly stand by. And by showing any moral compass or value is not virtuous but a weakness for others to attack just as much as it could be admired. So like the wise thing I’d like to say I don’t have any morals just a heart with things locked up for safekeeping.
By being a decent civil person should be enough without putting the heart fully on display.

I’m also trying to answer your points but as usual I get lost, lost in to much thinking on my side I never actually get to a certain point or part.
Yet I hope you know I’ve taken on board what’s been said and from my side looking over I feel if a response is needed then would it be wrong if me to say you have just been pushing while ignoring you. Would it be wrong of me to say because you have then it’s all now gradually getting on top or you have been through the worst now. Be because of your train of thought or by reading my waffles

What ever the case maybe when the eyes or mind opens it be a shock to the system. Mixed emotions or feelings but feeling means something it means we are alive. We can learn more about who we are by doing what humans are designed to do. Socialise because we are a social being and in our DNA. Without being true to ourselves our feelings in order to truly convey how they feel to other social beings or groups then no wonder some find day to day living so hard at times.

Would that mean all people hide behind their true feelings or able to feel full stop. Ie the problem with today and why this thread is set up and the way it is so if it all gets to much one can come here and say I’ve had enough or might need to find some balance in this world.
And yes it might not be the perfect solution but by being here says some are willing to a risk because it might not be done for popularity but as mentioned to be a decent civil human being by here if ever the need arise.

So yes we have a good old waffle and again with the DM’s don’t worry about responding as I’ve not really got back to it all.
Yet please DM if it’s more personal or direct and I will try keeping up. My waffles get me lost just as much as you or any other reader.

But before I go I’m gonna look at doing something fun for Halloween as I’m not much of a celebration person like birthday etc yet Halloween is one seasonal event I do actually enjoy. If looking at Halloween from it’s true form.
Maybe if you have some time could join the fun
I’ll be posting something soon.

And just want to say thank you for kind words about still being around and sharing the odd livery etc. I had the stuffing kicked out of me a little but I’m not gonna let it spoil things for me or others.
Maybe with Fred’s help we can all have some Halloween fun by doing something on the livery front.
I’ve got a 3 year head start tho

And Jimbo I appreciate you sharing here with me and open for others.
It’s all gravy as we say up north, so have a chill and don’t worry about what’s said or not.
Because remember who’s the master of the mind, you or others by allowing the hidden chains to the mind be pulled by the weak.
Is this what I’ve been waffling on about is that chains are not always visible and so to really be free is to break all chains hidden as much as ones we might think we see.

Only then can one comment from any shame or concern to be able to say they’re truly free from all chains, be ones of our own making or not. Slavery of the mind can never bring true peace or happiness. And why I believe if one’s is not in control behind the wheel then who’s steering, a life is a the mercy of who’s ever is in control and behind that wheel.

So on that note I think I’ll take a rest too Because to honest with you I’ve not been too good, but I’ll explain later in a DM.

Take care tho my friend and I think I’ll be topping up the Jam again soon

Lee✌.